I can’t believe that my son starts school tomorrow! I’ve been bracing myself for this since last April when I went into the school to register Quin. Even that was hard for me. I left all weepy and thankful that at least I still had the Summer with my sweet little boy.
But now Summer is over. Not technically I know. And some would say it hasn’t even arrived. But for me and the many who are returning to school and daily routines, it seems that summer has already begun to make way for another season.
I’ve been thinking a lot about seasons lately. How there is beauty and loss all wrapped up together into one. You begin to realize that these two things aren’t separate from one another. But instead they are part of a divine whole. I think the seasons of our lives are like this too.
I’ve been grieving the fact that I need to let go of what has been. The moments that can never be relived. But will be treasured forever. Moments like this one, when Quin was just starting to walk.
I know that Quin is going to “crush it” at Junior Kindergarten:) I know that he will also experience pain and mommy won’t be able to make everything better. (Have I ever really been able to??) Pain and loss have purpose. I like how The Message Bible puts Romans 5: 3-5,
“There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit! ”
This gives me hope that whatever comes, my son is going to be okay and so will I. I don’t need to understand or control everything. I need to trust and embrace another season of letting go.
Even though we had such a brutal winter last year and it’s been a cool summer I am still looking forward to Fall. I’m looking forward to the crispness in the air, the Fall Mums, the apple pie, and the rich meaning that surrounds The Thanksgiving Harvest. Also, my new store will be open by the end of September! YAY! We’re working on a new recipe for a yummy Pumpkin Pie Parfait in a Jar just for you:)
Sending you my “Back to School” blessing. As well as big hugs for all the moms who are sending a 4-year-old to school!!! OMGoodness!